I am starting to notice that some of my posts start with “Over the last few days…” Well, here it goes again: Over the last few days I have been ‘in my feelings’ or better yet, ‘all up in my feelings.’ Ever had ‘one of those days’ where you can’t seem to settle your thoughts on one particular thing long enough to make a decision, but you feel a tug on your mind and emotions that keeps you swirling in a bunch of different thoughts? Well that has been me for about a week. It’s not that I want to be all alone like Monica sang about in her 1995 hit. It’s more like I have an undiagnosed case ADD and EO (Emotional Overload-my new term) that isn’t going away. I’ve been a little more sensitive about things that would normally roll off my back and I’ve been concerned about small things more than I need to be.
I realize this is a phase I’m in. It will pass and I will look back on these days and laugh. I may even be able to encourage another mom about how to get through it. But dang…it sucks to be in it.
Moment of honesty: I am second guessing my decision to leave my job just a little. This doesn’t mean I want to go back I’m just having a moment. Read about my initial decision here –> tran·si·tion. I think that’s where my emotional roller coaster is coming from. I have said to myself, “This is what you asked for right?” Humph. Be careful what you ask for right?! While I can sometimes wear my emotions on my sleeve, I have been wearing these emotions in my heart and on my mind.
So how have I been working through these feelings? I’ve been at the gym more, cooking more, cleaning more, job hunting more, and definitely praying more. I have also stayed connected to my
village. This has been especially helpful. Shout out to my village! Love you guys! So if nothing else I will come out of this a few pounds lighter, well fed off of low-cal meals prepared in my clean kitchen, and I’ll have one helluva prayer life!
My encouragement to you- there will be times when you feel like me. Be confident that it will pass. In the meantime stay connected to your village. Don’t seclude yourself while you’re in your feelings for too long. Let your village help you. Try your best to be productive and focus your energies on things within your control. And in the words of my MIL (Mother in Love), make a plan and stick to that plan. So as I say goodbye to August I am determined to not take too many of these emotions into September and remaining months of the year. Who’s with me? –Krystal